LOCKED IN!!!

SO i work at vodafone on broadway. the shop is getting closed down. the landlord came in five minutes ago and said... "FIVE MINUTES AND IM LOCKING THE PLACE UP!" and he did just that.

I AM LOCKED INSIDE MY WORK WITH MY BOSS WITH ONLY MY BAG MY PHILOSOPHY READER AND THIS INTERNET. I AM SOOOO FREAKED OUT. but at the same time this is hilariousss. i had my boss barry take a photo of me standing next to the locked door! what the frick! who does this happen too. this has GOT to be illegal. i mean what if there was a fire? or what if my boss was a freak?! which he isnt. he is so sweet. ill be posting the photo as soon as he emails it to me. hahah this is the worst thingg oh well once the door is unlocked im off to the beach!!! hehe. i looove COOGEE BEACH!

CUT

This morning my devo was really good. I love how God confirms things throughout your walk that you learned when you were young. He opens your eyes to a deeper understanding! Phil 3:10. Soooo WE ARE CONFORMED TO HIS DEATH. this means we go through our own personal "crucifixions" and we come out ressurected. we conform ourselves to his death so that we may know him more. KNOWING GOD is the sickest thing. it feels so exclusive yet everyone is meant to! its the best thing.


I CUT MY BANGS TODAY =]



but they are just long enough to where i can move them to the side! I read laurens blog today and she never told me she wanted to go to spain. WTF why havent i been informed that she wanted to maybe go there that sounds fun! i feel bad if she wants to go there she should. i mean obviously she will if she gets cash but i wish she would have had the courtesy to let me in on it!!! I am kind of frustrated cuz i was set on if she had got money to travel anywhere it would be to AUS. yet another confirmation in the life lesson that you cant put your faith in people. if she comes cool, if she doesnt, cool. whatever. im not mad. yes i am. but im not too upset. just gotta deal with it. i came alone! i have to be happy alone =].

cant wait to go home for a week in april.

COACHELLA!!!!!

DATEUPS.

alright so as of now im trying to switch over to tumblr but SAFARI sucks so bad that its uploading like crap. so im still on blogspot. anywhattttt.... I have done alot this past couple of weeks. im obsessed with this cafe right across the street from my house cuz they have free wifi and everyday has a different special for example today is 4$ champagne and strawberry. =]


everyday is 5$ pizza loveeee pizza. and whatever. but other than that... i walked 25 miles friday night. the consequences of that are my feet feel like they are going to fall off and its hard to walk now in addition to my pelvic pain. but walking is good for me so i guess alls fair. anyway im about to eat a bay pizza. and things seem to be changing back home . james isnt friends with pete or dirk or anyone from box for that matter...unless they have shown him otherwise. but it blew my mind i thought they were family!!! =[ oh well things change and for james im sure its for the better. he is awesome.

this sweedish waiter and i are becoming friends . but i still cant really understand him and he never makes eye contact with me when i talk to him its weird....actually he will look at me when i talk but he wont look at me when he talks...maybe its a sweedish thing. i love those sweedish fish things. mmmm but ew kevin is video chatting me. i really dont want to talk to him right now but he just told me he is drunk soooo maybe i do hahaha. welllp. thats that.

VIVA MEXICO

tonight Jay and Chuckie came over for a Mexican Dinner feast! we made hard shell tacos and chicken fajitas!! mmm then we went to the park by my house and watched Black sheep on my laptop. this movie was so good. Zombie killer sheep attack the people! and then the people who are bitten turn into sheep! yea...

HEARTS A MESS

Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine

You have lost
Too much love
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It’s not enough)
You just threw away the key
To your heart

You don’t get burned
(’Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see…

Love ain’t fair
So there you are
My love

Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this

Love ain’t safe
You won’t get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don’t wanna waste my love


SO I totally forgot about this song. and Since i finally got my laptop back ive been listening to music alllll day . and I just want to be in love with someone right now. like in this moment. i dont really mean in general like at this stage of my life but right now.. and there are 2 maybe 3 explanations for this RIGHT NOW... 1) maybe im really horny haha admit it we all get anxious for a rough make out sesh.
2) im about to start my period which I AM one of those girls that gets all moody and dramatic, so my emotions are possibly heightned right now... or 3) i usually go thru these ups and downs of being single for 20 years... I get over them after a couple times of smart self analyzing and reassuring myself i dont need anyone right now is not the time. and remind myself that the fact that im not making initiatives or looking is a smart choice. im all about the WAIT thing. but its only NATURAL to feel this desire for companionship!
and im not like... lonely or needy or anything.. just a normal (smart) 20 year old girl with emotions who has just recently in the past 3 years learned to tame them...for the most part.

oh life. if only it were as simple as the cinnimon goodness we knight that breakfast name to.

A "me" night

LITTLE HAVALI AND GEORGIA RULE. indian take out and a chick flick with me myself and i. I hope this movie isnt gay. I like chick flicks but theres Chick flicks and then theres ....CHICK FLICKS. ones good ones bad. just dont put the emPHA-sis on the wrong sylABBUS you know what im sayin. if not... im destined to relax with my aching booty and maybe go to physical therapy tomorrow... if i want.. i kind of dont want to . im not handicapped. IM ABLE!!!


frick i should have bought ice cream...maybe yogurt and fruit loops will do... or maybe some oreos..mmm.


xxoo lifes a breeze.

Today i Moved from my crap room which might as well have been solitary confinement with padded walls and a straight jacket included...

to a bigger room with a courtyard! thank god but the task was hard considering my cracked pelvis lol. it took me three hours but mission accomplished and NOW im off to Bi-Lo and Kmart and Coles to buy some shelves tacs and maybe a pot to cook my pasta in!!! yum!

x rays are all good. my crack should heal sweetly. just walkin around with pain all over. haha